Have you ever stop to think of what you want in your life?



Hey, you know what?

This is what i wrote when i was 14 years old. I don't really remember that i actually wrote this. Come to think of it, i had no idea what my mind was thinking at that time. Was so immature and not realistic. Well, im still just a kid. =)

Four years... just like that. Now, im 18 years old, still a kid. So many things had changed, yet some things remain unchanged. Some things i regreted writing, now im stucked, yet some things i had achieved or i know i'd always had had in that old list. If i were to rewrite now, many new things would be inside, and --- "family, friends, good friends, to have love, to love everyone and loved by everyone, to breathe, to care, to sleep, to be happy, and never put a full-stop in my 'i want in my life' list(still greedy)" would still be in there. Guess these things are tattooed inside me.

That paper, reminds me to think of what i had learnt and achieve the past four years. "Not much" is the last thing i would want to think of but, it was the first thing i thought of. That sucks. Ok, i should save regreting, and start planning. The next four years will be better! I promise.

Lastly, i would like to thank Mr Ow, for keeping this paper the past four years in his bag and then showing me yesterday when his brother coincidencely checked his bag and found my 'what i want in my life' list.

Don't you know, my heart is pumpin', oh, i got this feeling...

I'll do better, I know,
Baby, I can do better.

Today, i thought for the whole day. About my past, present, future.

Factors that tamed me. (at least, i still have my conscience)
Family,
Money,
Pride,
Law,
Studies,
Guilt,
Fear,
Dignity,
Time,
Friends.
Factors that makes me crazy. (even if i have to go against the world, i'll do what i want.)
Courage,
Selfishness,
Determination,
Wilfulness,
Honesty,
Thick-Skined,
Nature,
Dont-Care Attitude,
Trust,
Freedom,
Luck,
Money,
Stubborness,
Patience,
Happiness.


If this is a choice, what would you choose?
Choose A and you'll not have B.
Choose B then forget about A.

If only its an equation...

While blog hopping,... found something interesting.

Consciousness Matters

Today, I gave up on chances, that i gave myself. (So corny)

Previously, I gave up on many chances for me to "fly". I asked my heart, "why..?" He said,"without 'courage' and 'believe', i cant do anything, i lost them, my world is very, very dark... cant see anything.."

Every day in our lives, people usually dont take chances or even not notice them. This world gave us so many chances if you'd notice. Every decision, every task, things we do, places we go and etc.

Opportunity, Luck, Miracle, Possibility, Phenomenon, Accident, Risk.
They are always there, for taking. Be it positive/negative, if you believe, why not?
If you have a dream, give it a chance to happen.

If you dont, its okay, you wont die. I dont and im alive here. There is no right or wrong, just, what do you want? You reap what you sow.(you get what you give) You choose.

I try to have no chance, no destiny, no fate, but a firm, determined soul. Yes, i completely agree that action speaks louder. Thats why i used "try". One should design their own life plan, if one dont, fate would plan it. Guess what fate had planned? Probably not much, because Fate is too busy planning for every matter in this universe.

Something inspirational to share :D

BE THANKFUL

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire. If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something, for it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations, because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary, because it means you've made a difference.

It's easy to be thankful for the good things.

A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks.

Find a way to be thankful for your troubles, and they can become your blessings.

Great song, perfect choreo, sweet story.

Today, someone reminded me and, i gazed at the sky.
Where are the stars?? I dont even remember when was the last time i saw one.

When i was young i guess. When i was really young, i used to gaze at the sky every now and then. During the day, i would stare at the clouds, wondering if they really moved or my eyes are playing tricks on me. During the night, I would search for the brightest star, and name it. Make a wish if i happen to see a shooting star. Time seem to pass really quick when you count the stars.

Now, when i look at the sky, stars dont seem to exist anymore. Its just blank darkness most of the time. Where are they?.. I learnt that earth spins, wind blows, clouds move and stars are just rocks hanging above. Shooting stars are visible paths of a rock as it enters the universe. Do you still wish if you know that?

No I aint gonna do that but, i'll buy 4-D, TOTO, etc. (OMG i answer my own question! Z.)

Shooting stars come and go so quickly, and they relatively rare to appear, especially in modern cities where theres light pollution. Luck is with you if you'd happen to see right? Or is it coincidence?? Fate??!!

I wonder... but whatever it is..., i'll still wish.
Because i still have hope, still believes in life...

If you have some free time, please, watch this.

" Earthlings "

and spread it.

'You' think my blog entries are very emo?
'You' think im still pondering over a girl?
'You' think im having a sad life?

No lah, they are very optimistic and forward looking! Sometimes it may sound miserable bleak and pessimistic, but if you really understand them, they are much positive and full of life! To question life, to bravely accept reality, to experience life, to move forward, to have no regrets. I'd admit i might be pessimist last time but now, I've learnt.

The girl? No lah, I've moved on. She got her life, I had mine. Our direction diverted, with different paths.. We still keep in contact from time to time... Sometimes, you know, you still have that urge, to hold on harder, to keep on trying... That fire, still burning, and its warm... That light, still flicker, still shines... After some years, I've given up. Now, it's a book left untouch at the corner of the shelf. That chapter has end. It's over, time to move forward.

My life's blue? No lah, Being sentimental about some issues in life doesn't mean im living a sad life. Im just 'REAL'. I still look forward for the future! Sometimes i really envy others but hey, now i know to use the phrase, 'At least'. It a phrase i've learnt during my motivational days in secondary school. Very useful huh.

Thats the truth.