Death

She left us. That was the last message my sister left me. It came all so suddenly. Last week I was in the hospital, she was talking and smiling. Looking healthy. This afternoon, her dad was still talking to her. But she left too fast, in just a moment of time. I was in the icu and I saw her still breathing. It wasn't her breathing. It was a machine connected to her lungs making her breathe. Her mother was there, calling out to her. Wake up baby, wake up! Even though she knew there was no miracle. We all knew. But she didnt give up. Her eyes were sore. Her dad just sits in one corner letting out gasps of sigh. I stood by knowing there was nothing left to do. But, just pray. Rest in peace in the land of clouds. You will continue living in the hearts of family and friends. Is there really, no miracle?

Fear

What are you afraid of? You were brave.. Are you still? I highly doubt you are. Now that I have so much, fear starts to arise as well. One day my whole world will come crushing down on me. Someone once told me, real courage is having fears but still jumping anyways. That's fearless. I hope you're still fearless. I really hope so. But ive come so far, gotta get through with it. Almost got away, but you held on to me. That's what I'm afraid of. Hurting you

流血不流泪

I thought ill never tear again. I really thought so. Because I have a cold heart, a really cold one. Since when did you turn weak? Through this short period of time, you cast a spell, you did it. You warmth me, made me alive again. But you made me weak as hell. I cant let you in anymore. Brace yourself kelvin, take caution, you better.

Love is weird

Tonight I wonder, many times through my mind. Is it magic? Is it touch? Is it comfort? Is it seeing? Is it listening or is it words? Is it thoughts? Is it the brain or the heart? How do you love? How do I love? I just can't figure it out. What do you do when what you need is something that is bad for you? I guess there ain't no choice over here.

You don't have to say it

Show me how you feel, rather than telling me. Because when you do, you dont have to tell me anymore, it's more than words can say.

Why is it so cold?

But why is the ice so cold?
Why is it so cold?
Why are you so cold?

Your cold shoulder gives me pain
Your concern gives me relief
I find it hard to feel your warmth
I've been outside in the cold for long
And it's harder to feel your love
I'm used to feeling like I don't matter
I'm here baby, frozen
All I want is your warmth
I'm happy I make you warm
But I'm sad I don't feel warm
I need you to hold me close
And not ever let go again
It's too cold, to be alone after you

Lucky first sight

Do you believe? I've never believe in soul mates or love at first sight. They say cupids dont exist, nor the starry eyed or crossed star lovers. It is nurturing, it is maturity and it is strong. But I believe that a very few times in our lives, if lucky, we might have met the one whos exactly right for us. It doesnt have to be perfect, just the combined flaws of two individual were arranged in a way that allowed us to hinge together.

The first

With the moonlight, the stars, light streetlight across, covered by shadows we sat together. Dangerous, my heart's pounding. I looked around for souls that cared. I asked you to close your eyes. Distrusted me, you held my hands with your small hands. I felt they were small, but warm. Wearily and slowly, I kissed you. I closed my eyes. It felt like a natural thing to do. You softened the grip, it turned gentle and that's when I felt it was real. You're sincere, you're here. Just like when the vision gets clearer, I finally got the picture. A lightblub above my head. That's when souls could bother me no more. Welcome to the game for two.

Just a fool

The one whos heart feels too much, thinks too deep, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves the actions and hates mere words, hurts people and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries. It's a risky gamble and just a fool you are, a fool you are.

不可能

我记得当年有人说
当爱情来时要小心
我有

你很坚强但我不会
我的幻觉我的错误
我不小心我忘了
我又

现在错的都做了
已经没话说了
你轻易的走了
赢了

你可以去跟他们说
说我现在终于知道了
屋顶上大声的说
写在天线上

我们拥有的都没了
说我开心过
说我的心碎了
说我的伤口开了
说我所希望的

不可能