I know that sadness will not be able to change anything
If that's the case, then let me be honest a little bit
To be honest that's it's difficult to avoid an unruly betrayal
I can only close the door and ignore the world
Sitting alone inside this empty space
Let the cellphone rest for a night
So difficult, I feel like cutting off all the frames of memory
These tears can no longer shed past Midnight
Happy birthday, I said to myself
As the candles are blown
Loneliness lit up
Happy birthday
Tears are melted away
I want to thank for all that you gave and took away
Having to love you still, carries a little scar
Only time
Can heal the wound
Passionate love leaves painful traces
As the picture replays
Wish me a happy birthday

so readers you think its ok to NOT laugh at this funny article? cause if so you really have no place in this conversation and can back off right now. I may not support people who have no sense of humour but what kelvin is trying to do is to entertain his readers, how can you be against that?

Breathe in, breathe out

10 September 2010

Dear future kelvin,

IPAD?
IPAD?
IPAD?
IPAD?
IPAD?

Regards, past kelvin

15 August 2010

Today is sunday, heh confession day. Just nice, i have a confession to make. I didn't quit smoking. Arggh.

Yesterday i'd decided to work my ass off and i did. Cant complain. The future Kelvin will rock your pants off. Anyway, i feel damn freaking emo writing this down. It's like i have nobody to talk to and... i dont. Dont remind me.

I had this bad thought for weeks that tells me, 'hey brand new, go and get an ipad so you can write thoughts like this efficiently.' Really Kelvin? Nah, i just want an ipad, it is just so cool. SIR-RI-YEARS-LY, I NEED AN IPAD! Fine, time to be mature and apply what you had learnt. When you want something, you work your ass off for it. You fucking do it. You better fucking do it.

I should probably write down the mistake I've done recently. Simply saying, -Do not snatch things from friends you wanna keep- what are you thinking, its not a girl. Now, i've been ditched aside. The past Kelvin could have argued, 'Hey, it was what you did to me that i did to you' but i didnt. Well, the time is not right. Anyway, it over, move on Kelvin. At least you still have people that cared, could count them easily with a hand. I know, life sucks, and i dont always say that.

Dear future Kelvin and Universe,

I have so many questions now. Yeah, practically my future. Thats what everyone wants to know i guess. What do you hold for me,? What would i become in 3 years? 5 years? 10 years? I know the answer actually. Yesh, precisely me. I will not change if nothing change. I hope things change for the better. I sincerely hope. Life is amazing I always say that.

Best regards future Kelvin
Bai past Kelvin

Today is August 14 2010.

Im sitting here blogging, and i just went to googled for 'how to get a life'.
Guess my friend is right, i had no life. Hate to admit it. Im stucked. Im doing nothing. I should probably go out there and do something. Just get out there kelvin!

Kelvin boy, you sucked seriously. seriously, and i meant sir-ri-years-ly. It was meant to pronounce like that. ha ha, you're so damn funny. I meant sacastically, if you dont get it, future kelvin. Oh, btw i learnt this 'future kelvin' thing while watching 'how i met your mother'. Oh man that was a good show. iiiiiiiiiiiiii LOVE IT! [thanks caleb, brandon]

So, future kelvin. Thinking time. Man, you sucked, past kelvin. You think too much sometimes. I hate my stupid brain. But sometimes i love it.

KELVIN if today you're gonna decide to do something, do it. DO IT I MEAN IT. EVEN IF IT WAS A MISTAKE, YOU WILL LEARN YOUR LESSON AND GROW UP. Time to grow up.

If if if.. you wanna quit smoking, fucking hell quit it.
you wanna get a girlfriend, cause you're horny, fuck it, fuck her. unleash the whatever, monster. Stop acting like whatever, angel that comes from the heaven? Fuck you past kelvin.

Opps, did i just said that? no, i typed it. zomg you're a horny bastard, you're done kelvin, you're done.

WTF? fuck off past kelvin you're done. thanks for the angel reputation though, kkthxbai.

Today, i am so lonely right here right now. My friends ditched me. They didnt called me to play HON when i said i wanted to play. Practically, they gave up on me, because we had collision domains. We collided thats all i can say. FINE FINE , ima use my motto from young that i've always used. Dont friend dont friend loh. Life sucks right? I've always didnt say that. But, life sucks.

BUT!!! Life is still not a bitch. Lucky to have another friend to accompany me for breakfast in an hour. WOO! ok, its 7am now, i didnt sleep. You should not do this, future Kelvin.

Regards to Future Kelvin!
Bai, past kelvin.

This will be my suicide letter if my heart is broken in the future.

August 10, 2010
Bitch I Told You, I motherfucking told you. I told you. I god damn told you. Tell me I didn't tell you. You're a fucking liar, because I told you. I god damn told you. Maybe you weren't listening. Maybe your just too fucking stupid and thought I wasn't serious. But I told you. Or maybe you were too busy drooling over all those cocks you wanted to suck to pay attention. But I told you. I don't know what the fuck's wrong with your hearing. What I do know is that I told you. Just like my father told my mother and his father told his mother and his father told his mother, I told you. What did I tell you? That's right, I told you I would fucking kill you and me both if you ever left me. Maybe from now on you will listen when I tell you something.
Kelvin

I was on this website that they generate suicide letters. The letters generated can be base on different reasons. Cool uh?

Don't ask me why i was on the website, HAHAHAHAHHA!

BLOG CLOSED.

Being an adult means being lonely sometimes.

i still remember, 'the reason' was playing.

Just another place to stop for a break i guess.

It was strange feeling, like, everything was taken care of.

There was nothing else in the world to worry about.

Comforting, very comforting.

and dangerous, in that moment.

i just wish, i havent wished what i've wished.

and luckily, it didnt came true..

i'll try not to stay behind stangers from now on.

maybe, its just a noslagic thing to do, im happy :D

u hold a glass, and someone keep pouring hot water in it.

eventually it'll overflow and hurt you

making you wanna just let it go and break the glass..

it'll smashed into million pieces.

but what if......, what if

you just hold on to it regardless of everything.

you've decided to save the glass by all means

even if its sacrificing your hand..

i really admired people who can do that..

but it broke in the end,

cause you hold on to it too hard.

you lose the glass and your hand.

who broke it?

yes.

but would you regret?