Hey, it's quite long time ago since i blogged. Quite busy nowadays, i have to attend lesson at nyp every monday to friday and the hours are quite long too. But im not working so frequently as school started. Changed schedule to the sweet weekends. Anyway, from today onwards i will try to do blog entries everyday. I notice that this blog is becoming so isolated. You can notice just by looking at the tagbox. OK since i recently got my personal notebook, i will put in best effort to try and blog daily so i can get back to what it was before. Anyway, it wasn't anything before too. Oh well. Reality is cruel.

Today attended school at 1.20pm. The actual lesson starts at 1.10pm but i woke up at 12.30pm. Of course as usual i was late. I don't think i was early for any of the lessons for this week. =p It's just the first week, i need to be more punctual. Yes i will try to put in effort to change the bad habit. The first week lessons ends today. Phew, finally over. But, sign, i have to work tomorrow and on sunday. No time to enjoy and rest. Its OK! I just need to work hard for few more years. The first priority now is to pay off all my debts, follow by complete my studies in nyp and then buy a siberian husky!

My brother told me that finally he could see me everyday nowadays. We're not gay but very close friends. I realised that i had almost never accompany most of my good friends during the long holiday. I was like working everyday. I felt bad of course, but i've got no choice. I told him that from today onwards he'll see me until he's tired of me lol.

Trying to stay healthy(as if), i'm going jogging with some friends 10pm around yishun area. Sometimes i'm contradicting myself. A 10 cigarattes daily smoker going to exercise. I know that!
Everything is base on oneself. What you want to do you do, vice versa. I think i am yet quiting before 18. No choice, my mind and body ain't giving me a hand.

Actually i think that i'm quite childish. 17 years old plus still using Naruto as his blogskin, hanging a stitch(lilo and stitch) keychain with my keys etc. I wanted to change the blogskin soon, or maybe i will if i'm not lazy. i will donate all my stitchs away when i grow up. Random


Dead and Gone (Feat. Justin Timberlake) - T.I.

today went to orientation
hmmm, what can i say,
its way way way too lame and childish..
did introduction in my class for around 4 times. FUCK
sit down in a circle and play stupid games with my class..
answer stupid questions like " what will you do if you're pregnant? "
wtf, nonsense. how can a guy get pregnant.
but its ok, i know their good purpose is for us to make friends
socialise around my class
no pretty girls in my class so sad =(
class starts on monday at 9am.
siannnnnzzaaaattttiiioonnnnnnnnnn
ends at 6pm. worst siannnzzaatttiioonnn
its decided, im going to play truent on the next day's orientation
even more lame games for tomorrow.
better not go as im not that kind who like these
going to watch ' HANDSOME SUIT ' later FOC!!
so long didn't watch movie already since..... don't know when
oh yeah bye suckers lol

You never cross my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best,
I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you
MemoriesSupposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand, Yeah
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you,

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whats this sour feeling inside me,
im sad i guess....
she created hope for me, she said so confidently
now she tells me to give her up..
its obvious, though she didn't tell me orally..
maybe its because of the distance, or not able to be together all the time
i cannot give her what she wants
be it kelvin you have no money, you have no time and you smoke
so leave her alone... better for both
yes im sad but its okay, its just temporary.
temporary.....................

GIRL OF MY DREAMS

Girl of my dreams

One Sunday morning, around 2 years after I began dating June, my family and I were having breakfast. I broke down and everything came out. That was probably the most difficult moment of my life , but also one of the best, even though I never thought so at that moment.

It all began with, "the girl of my dreams".

I lived a shealtered life in a small city and attended a catholic college everyone attended. It was the beginning of a new year when I thought I had discovered "the girl of my dreams", or what I had thought so at that time. June was a beautiful winsome girl with a great personality, who always knew what to say to make me felt comfortable being with her. The more time we spent tighter, the more i got attracted to her.

Then it all began. It started with verbal arguments and swearing. Soon it escalated. I discovered June had problems. She confided in me, I found out about her divorced parents and abusive father. June took up all my time and I considered it my responsibility to save her. Little did I realized, I was sacrificing myself for her punishing behavior. I sacrificed the friendship of my best friends. I became so isolated and growing further away from my family and friends. I could not remember when the violence became so intense. I was a victim and could not fight back for fear of what else might happen. It soon became a sickening cycle but always ended in dramatic apologies and promises. The violence was occuring more frequently and getting worst each day. She always made marks in places people could not see, I always have excellent explanations if anyone happened to witness. No one knew how much emotional and physical pain was tearing me apart. On the exterior, my life seemed composed and everyone thought our relationship was perfect.

I could not find the reason for what made me realized this treatment was inhuman. Maybe it was because of my best friends who would not longer speak to me or my parents that who do not interact with me. I was convined that no one would be there for me even if I left June. I dared not sound anybody until I broke down. I plunked up every courage of mine, and released everything.

After I broke off all ties with "the girl of my dreams", I began to piece my life back together. At first I thought I would die without June, but it all took time to change everything. I attended therapy and counsiling. I could not have done it without my family and friends who were very supportive.

Now, I had moved on to new responsibilities and greater aspirations. More independent and happy I had become. All thanks to my supportive family and understanding friends and my courage to be honest.

Kelvin

Believe it or not, based on a true story.

As time goes by, the future becomes the present, the present becomes the past, and the past becomes.....
Regret.

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hello people... long long time didn't post already... rusty
got miss me anot? haha..
anyway, here are some pictures taken over the past few days...

1.a present to cheer me up when im sad.. given by my boss.. its a stitch by the way.. haha so nice of her? =/ lololol

2.derek tay act cool at 156 coffee shop when im eatting my 'xin zhou bee hoon' .. ahhh.. my favourite...

3.my niece, jobelle upside down.. so cute. but she keep pui saliver when i carry her.. not adorable...

jobelle, resisting taking a photo... naughty girl...

yesterday when to jon birthday bbq at 407 park. picture taken when he blew the candles.. he ate half the cake forced.. we asked him to blow 18 seconds of martel. woah he did 10 seconds and then row boat already... cannot even walk in a straight line. hahahaha.. after that still drink somemore.. in 30 mins , dead like a log. haha

Valentine

Happy Valentine Day to all living things on earth.!

this year no valentine again.. very happy and sad.
SAD because i have to be lonely.
HAPPY because i can save money on valentine. hahaha

haiz.. valentine day still have to work.. no double pay also.. siannnnnn
my boss so NICE... ownself go enjoy valentine day.. still need to wake up so damn early.. 7am leh. stress ah....

ok.. hope every couple together forever and loners like me can find their true love.. best wishes and happy valentine.

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Bao and me at hong kong cafe

last day of chinese new year.. went to northpoint's hong kong cafe with serene, lyy, and bao. what a BIG surprise serene planned.. it was nice though.. baked rice with mango ice cream.. ^^

after that went to meet hua and slack around till 3.. tio screened somemore cb.. suayyy

tired, tired, tired

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we closed the one month last chance to try.. i dont think i could ever love somebody anymore.. so i decided not to try as it would only cause people to get hurt more.. its over between us. now, both of us could at least move on..

Finally, today i damn bored and went to check singtel website. i was damn surprised to see jiawen and my photo in it. that singtel reporter didn't lie to us. she finally update the website. it was taken on the day we went to 'Fei Lun Hai' concert that is sponsored by singtel.. Christine Yeo finally prove herself not a bomberman..
Check it out! CLICK HERE , click enter, and then go to BUZZ and watch the video. After clicking enter u can click SKIP at the center bottom if you dont wish to wait for the irritating animation.

UPDATED* btw i found a straight link to the video. FOR LAZY PIGGIES

pictures

ALL MY LIFE

Me and Jiawen's jb trip

spamming cigg without SPCA

155 playground slacker

Cousins's time

jie jie and me fighting over $ - schooling time~

what a boring blog haiz..