My previous template got deleted. Lost all my links. Yeahhh! No more snow.

Just finished editing the new template. I know it's cool.

Anyway, i think im losing it. Signed up for tumblr as well as formspring. I ok ma? don't know?

Remember to feed my fish on the sidebar. YES YOU. It's your responsibility.

Actually i think my partner dick is not that bad of a person. He's just like that. Quiet and serious kind. But i still go to lunch alone. Used to it already. 9 more weeks to go. Anyway, created tumblr already. www.tumblr.com/kkcs29. Now the question you wanna ask me is if i will still be blogging over here.

Don't know?

Changed of song, the last one was banned on youtube. That's just fucked up. Soon i'll change the outlook of the blog, seems like there's some error on the page. Now, im just plain lazy.

The reason i choosed this song is because...

Don't know? Just an old song. Nothing special. Just miss listening to it. I think it's about the end of a relationship and missing someone. Don't complain that it's emo. You guys just love emo shit. Admit it.
Anyway, the lyrics are here. Enjoy.

Sober by Butch Walker.

Can you please, remind me how you feel?

This emptiness is real, I can't bear the thought of it.

and please, remind me how to smile, I lost track after awhile.

Is happiness so hard to get?


Is it me, or is this over?

As I got sober, I watched you fade away.

Is it me, or is this ending?

As I was pretending, I watched you fade away.


I didn't know, that time could move so slow,

when you've got nowhere to go, the silence is so deafening.

Waking up, on the wrong side of your mind.

How could I have been so blind, to see I'm losing everything?


Is it me, or is this over?

As I got sober, I watched you fade away.

Is it me, or is this ending?

As I was pretending, I watched you fade away.


Oh, Sooner or later, we gotta stop this elevator.

You go your way and I'll go mine, I'm sure that I'll be fine.


Now is it me, or is this over?

As I got sober, I watched you fade away.

Is it me, or is this ending?

As I was pretending, I watched you fade away.

Sober, as I got sober.

As I got sober, I watched you fade, I watched you fade.

Is it of lies, masks and pretences or is it of rawness, realness and lack of control? Do you wanna be someone who puts everything on the surface or someone who have nothing on the face?

i choose to be someone who puts everything on the surface, a hypocrite and someone who live in his lies. Just like in the dreams, i want everything to be accustomed to my preference.

Dear chocolate, if you're reading this, you have been a naughty naughty bad girl. Do not come to my blog and read. Last warning for you. Dear diary, today i learnt a lil of french. Here are the words. chocolate - chocolat bitch - chienne stupid - stupide crazy - fou tais-toi - shut up vagin - vagina meme - same non - no!!!! I'm still into thai more than french. chai krap, laa gon krap.

As promised, today im gonna update on about the people here. First of all, i think my social anxiety had just broke a record and hit a new low. For the whole week, I had exchanged less than 20 sentences with the people here excluding myself. But, i have a partner! YES! also an intern. Let's call him dick. Yeap, he's a big one. He always use those kind of eyes, hate you kind. In the first place i've tried. I've tried making friends with him. I used the friendly and act close technique. The way he talk, is like a really really dick person. Whenever i go for lunch/break i would ask if wanna follow. He always decline me. When he go, he'll never ever ask. So normally i'll go for lunch alone. Like a forever alone. I don't know what his problem is seriously. Sometimes i see he's like wanna talk to me, but shy. Then i'll talk to him but he's be back to a dick. So after a few days i never try to strike up conversations anymore. I hope this situation changes for the better or i'm going to start talking to the monitor keyboard and water bottle.

Attachment to UTAC

I know that I have put blogging aside for a very long time. My apologies. (Why do I have to say this? It’s not as if the blog have feelings. But why do I still feel as though my pet died because I didn’t feed it…) Now I have a lot of free time to spare so…. When darkness turns to light it ends tonight. I have many past,…… let’s say… happenings to blog about. But for now I’m fucking lazy to slowly reminisce all of it. It had became quite a serious problem. I’m even typing with one hand now.

The reason I came back to rant is because I’m fucking bored out of my mind that I have urges to bite myself. Let’s hear the whole story shall we…?

I started 3rd year attachment for the final year of my poly life. Feels quite slow though because most of my poly mates are unofficial graduates now. You know? In every class there will be one person that will stay back to repeat because of bad results. That will be me. I know right sucks to be me. I’m the one playing sacrifice so that he will have mercy on everyone. Poor thing me. It’s not like I played too much, missed lessons too much, smoked too much, and didn’t really study so I have to push the blame on the lord. Really….. it’s not like that.

I’m attached to a company name UTAC. In the IT department. The allowance is $600 per month. Monday to Friday 8.00am to 5.15pm. After some calculation, round up to be $3.40/hour. Yes round up. Worse than working at macs. Life. Worst thing is they employed me to pretend to work there. At least this is how it feels like. Of course I have work to be done. The workload is like 10mins k im done. The scenario is, I used 10mins of Monday to finish the work then for the rest of Monday… Tuesday… of the week, I have to sit down there and pretend to be working on the 10 mins assignment. No social media, no movies, no sleeping beauty, everything nonono, but ciggrattes YES. So I have been smoking a lot since I start working here. Tell me what else should I do?! YOU TELL ME NOW YOU TELL ME NOW!!

Next post will be about the colleagues here.