Can't cry watching this movie, I reckon myself to have a heart of stone. That's my truth. I cried because you pushed me away. That's the truth. Just say no, next time. Honesty is always the best policy. Push me away, let me fall... Push me away, let me fall... They'll get to me, someday...

By the way, the movie's great. Touching and inspiring. Makes you think twice when laughing at others. Don't laugh at others, when they are different in a way. They are born this way. Accept the difference. Stand in their shoes, feel the pain they feel. Humans are like butterflies. Some can fly higher than the others but each one flies the best it can. Why compare one against another? Each one is special, each one is different. And everyone is beautiful.

You are a butterfly to me. Go now, fly, fly far away. Fly abundantly to the moon. If you should return to me, we truly were meant to be. So, spread your wings and fly.

As stated in the description. Simple to say, if you think it's true, you are right. Vice versa. No questions needed.

It's like a butterfly, the more you chase it, the more it eludes you. The moment you change your attention to other things, it will come and sit silently on your shoulder.

Some things don't work like that. Do they?

Drowned in the night sky, clear but still, clouds. I see a few stars. Stars that lit. With that finger, I traced your name. They shone more than the stars. Hope. Lost. I've never figured that out. Just trying out some fictions. Sitting beside you. I sense fire. It's burning, and burning. It never stops. I sat so still. Electricity shocks me. Again and again. Igniting the flames. Stop the flames, stop the shocks. Save me.

Love the way you lie,







on me.

Yes, nothing can change it. And it wounds.

Sometimes I lie awake at night, thinking, "where have i gone wrong?".

Then a voice says to me, "this is gonna take more than one night."

At first, i decided that the truth is probably the best, though it hurts alot, but it's just temporary. Once the step was taken, things change. I was surprised at the reaction. Im sorry, but this time im gonna lie, for the sake of seeing you bleed. What hurt the most for me, was giving you a temporary treatment, and make it worst when treatment fades away. In the end its just making the blood drip, turns into blood flow. I understand the thorns you threw at me wasn't your intention. I hope you'll stop firing at me when it backfires at yourself. Because the pain of trying to hurt somebody is even painful than being hurt. Now the truth is locked in the locker, dark room as to say, never to see the daylight. It'll vanish bit by bit.

When I stand close to someone, I wanted so much to tell someone, someone smelt so nice. It's like a specially made fragrant to seduce me. But, reluctantly i stepped back. The longer i persist, the harder it was for me to leave someone. I am happy enough for today. Hee

"You'll be my inspiration!" I thought to myself.

Oh lights, i guess i'm back to writing. Out of the blue, i have this urge to do so. Maybe it's because recently i chanced upon my testimonial from O levels, just a simple sentence, " He is capable of writing well, channelling his creative energy into his essays ". Well, the truth is, he copied all the essays from some alibaba book including his O levels narative. Not so creative anymore. Heh. "His confident and optimism will drive him to do his best despite facing challenges. He will do well in his future endevours." I'm not doing so well now hei? it's low self confidence but tryna act like confident in the end overconfident. Lollllllllllllll, optimism. Pessimism turned me into positively dangerous if you get what i mean. I know, what's the point anyway.

Not trying to win sympathy here, nobody owes anyone a living. Anyone can believe in anything whether it's true or not. Believing in something false doesn't make it true. If i believe i can fly and i jump out of the window, i'm still gonna fall. Not believeing in something true doesn't make it false. If i don't believe in the law of gravity is true, i'm still gonna fall. So, anyone can view my blog as subjective as it is. Whom may it concern? Heh, pardon the cynical laugh.

Sometimes im utterly unbelievably lacking intellectual acuity. Hurting people as i go then realizing it may all be too late. I regret that. But sometimes i'm not, and i can see, i can understand, i can feel how people behave around me...

Huai Ren

I guess, a leopard can never change it's spot. We are what we are. Holding on to what i am. Still, a pessimist somewhere inside. Sitting in an empty room trying to figure out what it's like, moving on. Well, thoughts hurt.. and i get that. LIES, truth. I don't know and I cant figure it out.. COME, tamers, i'm waiting.

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