its a good hair day.
hmmmmm.... is that a sign of good luck?

today i play truant on work and went to Roy house play mahjong. His house 3 storey sia!!
rich sunshine boy. -_- one day im gonna kidnap him.
muhahahahahahhaha!!!!
oh lord i feel sick about myself.
how can i do such a thing?
but then again...
the more i think about it....
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEEEE!!!
im a bastard. hahahahahah
i know whats the question you feel like asking now.
play mahjong right. got win anot?!

i......

i......

i......

HAHA!

got lah today is good hair day.
i win $4.30!!!!! :X

tomorrow we're celebrating wayne's birthday.
what to get for him leyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy????



something's different.
can you feel me smiling today?

happy times scare me sometimes..
to be fair, dont people get the same amount of :) and :(?
im afraid that something really bad would happen to me later on.

i know that it couldn't be measured like that. but still, there's this weird bad feeling.
sometimes, life ain't fair.
if you think about it, its not fair in the first place either.

such an unfriendly place,
we're still going through with it.

sign.

i miss all my so-called 'ah beng' friends. actually they are very nice la, inspite they smoke, drink and club. but i've got no time. i need to work. when i got no work i need to clean up the house. always not free de. why? did i not manage my time well?

sign sign sign.

SLEEP! :D

dear dairy,

today i went through some facebook profiles and realized a trend about youngsters nowadays. funny, ah bengs like to put something like " .... actually i am not a ah beng, i am a good boii.. i like to study, blah blah blah ...." in the 'about me' section. Oh really?... hmmmm... sure.. but you do have many irony photos man.. and your comments are like,

" @$$#^*# you go LPS lah" then the other will reply

"LPS????" then

"its long pia si(anyhow bang die) lah $%^&*$$@#$$%" then

"#$%^&*(^$# you go LTS @#$^%" then

"LTS?????? Dont copy me leh !@$#%$#@" then

"i ask you go long tou si(bang head die) $#^&%$##" then

"@#$%&#@ *NC16* @#$%@#@#$" then

"!@ *R21* #$%^ *M18* !@$#%^&#@"

and yeahhhh....... good boys

THINGS YOU CAN DO WITH ABSOLUTELY NOTHING

Blink wildly and then close your eyes really tight for an interesting light show
(Amusement Potential: 1-5 minutes)
See a variety of blobs, stars and flashes. Try to make out shapes and see if your subconscious is trying to send you a message.

See how long you can hold a note
(Amusement Potential: 4-20 minutes)
Not that much fun, but it sure passes the time. Play with a friend, or try to beat your own personal best. Inhale deeply and then try and make a noise for as long as you can. Earn extra points for making your partner laugh or ending on an amusing note.

Try to not think about penguins
(Amusement Potential: 1-5 minutes)
This is especially hard, because by trying too much, you remember what you were trying to avoid thinking of. If you try too little, you end up thinking about penguins anyway.

Use your secret mind power
(Amusement Potential: 5-10 minutes)
Pick a passing by and try to use your mind power to command them do something, like drop their bag or knock into someone. The law of averages dictates that sooner or later one of your mind commands will come true, so you can convince yourself that you really have super human powers and waste even more time trying them out.

Pretend you're a robot
(Amusement Potential: 1-3 minutes)
Walk down the street with mechanical movements, adding 'zzzzzt' sounds with each motion. Pretending to have a motor broken in, say, your left hand can add at least 30 seconds more entertainment. Scratch yourself(Amusement Potential: 1-3 minutes)Go ahead, scratch yourself now. Even if nothing itches, go ahead. Doesn't that feel pretty good?

Rate passers by
(Amusement Potential: 10-15 minutes)
Secretly award passers by marks out of ten as you go along, offering (unsaid) expert criticism over their clothing, hairstyle and footwear choices.

Repeat the same word over and over until it loses its meaning
(Amusement Potential: 1-3 minutes)
Pick a random word out of a magazine and say it aloud to yourself until it becomes a meaningless set of noises.

Pinch yourself
(Amusement Potential: 1-3 minutes)
What is pain? Why is it unpleasant? There's nothing physical about it - it's all in your mind. Plus, after pinching yourself for awhile, boredom will seem nice next to being in pain.

Try to swallow your tongue [i like this one!]
(Amusement Potential: 1-2 minutes)
There's not much to say about this one. It is possible, but really stupid.

Pretend to be a car
(Amusement Potential: 5-10 minutes)
Make appropriate revving noises in your head as you walk along and add a racing commentary as you pass strangers in the street. Use blinking eyes as indicators for extra authenticity.

Make Star Trek door noises
(Amusement Potential: 1-2 minutes)
Stand by an electric door to a bank or something and make that silly "Scccccccchwop" sound heard whenever people popped on to the bridge to hang with Captain Kirk.

Look at something for awhile, shut eyes, study after image
(Amusement Potential: 2-5 minutes)
Another great time waster. It takes about 30 seconds of staring to create an after image, and the image is then viewable for about the same length of time. Fun to combine this one with pushing on your eyes.

Get yourself as nauseated as possible
(Amusement Potential: 5-10 minutes)
Best achieved by looking straight up and spinning around. Try to be so dizzy you can't even stand up. This is also entertaining due to the "makes boredom seem a lot better".

Invent a weird twitch
(Amusement Potential: 5-10 minutes)
Adopt a bizarre twitch (e.g. flicking your head irregularly, twitching with eye or busting out sporadic cough noises) and try it out when you go shopping.

Make a low buzzing noise
(Amusement Potential: 15-30 minutes)
Hours of fun in libraries! Keeping a totally straight face and looking nonchalant, make a low pitch humming/buzzing noise and see who reacts.

this post would be an antidote for the previous emo and lame post.

i find that most people dont understand what im trying to say. maybe its abit embarrassing for me to cry this out loud because im just over obsessed with myself. but i prefer readers to understand what i meant.

im just blogging about the day i ran through my newborn photos. its that simple. im not a complicated person, im not in love with anybody but myself. and, "lame" and "emo" are not suitable for eachother. how can they be in the same category? doesn't the post sounds way to lame to be an emo post?


from the previous post: [antidote]
whats this feeling? [i felt something after scanning through my newborn photos]
what is this weird, mixed-up, incredible awesome feeling?? [what am i feeling]
i cant describe it.. [its a feeling i cant describe]
oh lord, the first time i ever felt this way before... [first time i got this feeling]
im going crazy! [what should i do?]
i want you, i want... I WANT YOU NOW!!!! [im so adorable]
i wanna, i wanna, wanna grab hold of you. [i wanna hug myself in that baby form]
oh no, am i in love?? [i love myself so much]
its more than that, it must meant something. [i must be something]
looking at your photos over and over again.. [looking carefully at myself]
cant keep my vision away from you... [repeating scanning through the photos]
argh...! what should i do?! [i cant stop]
this feeling is slowly devouring my inner organs, its killing me... [what a weird feeling]
gimme a break..... GIMME a break... GIMME A BREAK!!!!!!! [am i weird?]

have you recently check out your newborn photos? [i am not much of a random person, i dont post random sentences. this sentence here just says all about what im posting above. the rest of the post is just lame]

would you prefer me to write in the other reader friendly way? yes, humans tend to choose the easier way. everybody is the same. but if we keep choosing the easier way and as time goes by, how can we ever improve? just like if we keep counting numbers 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9..... and so on, if we never tried, how can we do addition, subtraction,... all the way to "hell would i know, ultimate of mathematics?" which is much much more complicated then just counting. and i think it would make the post much more interesting and funny like that. or you can call that lame.

now your reaction should be, "ORHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhh".

if your reaction is still "???? huh?????? what he talking sia". not to worry :)
you can call my helpline at 1900-1234-5678.
or visit the faq webpage at www.confirmunderstand.com

but if you have no reaction................
dont worry lah! since im so knowledgeable, my advice is..
just take care my friend... god will help you :)

thats all for the yeah,
antidote for the previous happy and interesting post

READER ADVISORY:
WARNING, (read carefully, do not miss out anything) the following post may contain violence, disturbing, explicit stuff, "very bad things", "very very bad things", "very very very bad things", "very very very very bad things", "very very very very very bad things" and "very very very very very very bad things". This is not funny, the purpose is to get you mentally prepared for the following post that may contain disturbing and explicit stuff, "very bad things", "very very bad things", "very very very bad things", "very very very very bad things", "very very very very very bad things" and "very very very very very very bad things". Seriously, proceed only if you're in a open and strong mental condition. Not suitable for children, unprepared minds and pregnant ladies.




















Ok.... guess you still have abit of courage since you read the warning and proceeded. But this not only need that bit of courage. More than that. I'll give you a last warning, give up and stop now or else.... *Evil Laughs*
If you still want to continue, I'll give you an advice, treat it as my last gift for you. Read carefully. It may be your last time receiving a gift though. *Evil Laughs*




















whats this feeling?
what is this weird, mixed-up, incredible awesome feeling??
i cant describe it..
oh lord, the first time i ever felt this way before...
im going crazy!
i want you, i want... I WANT YOU NOW!!!!
i wanna, i wanna, wanna grab hold of you.
oh no, am i in love??
its more than that, it must meant something.
looking at your photos over and over again..
cant keep my vision away from you...
argh...! what should i do?!
this feeling is slowly devouring my inner organs, its killing me...
gimme a break..... GIMME a break... GIMME A BREAK!!!!!!!




















have you recently check out your newborn photos?




















if you feel like fainting, dial 995 first.




















hmmmmmm.... if you still have question marks on your head, let me tell you the real intention of this post.




















The true meaning of this post is...... *drums*




















guess lor.




















sorry you've guessed wrongly. Okay i'll tell you now. Lemme repeat.




















The true meaning of this post is...... *drums*




















by the way, for those who had already got it, lemme remind you that you're wasting time here. you can stop reading now.




















didn't i tell you to stop reading? anyway, since you have already waste so much time.... why not.... you know.... waste more time and get this over with.




















oh ya, i'll now announce the true meaning of this post. lemme repeat.




















The true meaning of this post is...... *drums*




















................ just forget it and give up because this post is meaningless.




















haha... i warned you trice. if you noticed. heheh




















i will live happily ever after if i get you here. The End.




















no more!!!!!!




















still reading??




















you're wasting time you know..




















refer to the reader advisory if you're unhappy.




















really no more lah!

i see myself in their eyes.
and woah, never thought it was to this extend.
i disgusted myself.

theres so much i wanted to say, to stand up for myself.
hey friend, you know it right.
i know you do.. and you

now gonna be emo for a while..
i think im not good enough yet. not yet
pursuing loneliness to learn what friendship means..
sorry, bye

and, PLEASE LAH, im not that kind of dumb fool weaking that would suicide for some bad things that happens in life. FK!!!
bye.

im not in love,
this is not my heart,
im not gonna waste these words about a girl...

A story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home after having fought in Vietnam. He called his parents from San Francisco.

"Mom and Dad, I'm coming home, but I've a favor to ask. I have a friend I'd like to bring home with me.

"Sure," they replied, "we'd love to meet him."

"There's something you should know," the son continued, "he was hurt pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an arm and a leg. He has nowhere else to go, and I want him to come live with us."

"I'm sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere to live."

"No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us."

"Son," said the father, "you don't know what you're asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget about this guy. He'll find a way to live on his own."

At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him. A few days later, however, they received a call from the San Francisco police. Their son had died after falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was suicide.

The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror they also discovered something they didn't know, their son had only one arm and one leg.

How are you feeling now?

What
Are
They
Saying?

我一直坐在咖啡廳的角落
沒有人發現我還在難過
其實早就已經忘了怎麼說
就算再怎麼捨不得
你還是走了
我還不想承認這事實
怎麼會變成這個樣子
沒有了,
我真的什麼都沒有了
就像一個廢人
回家的路上我哭了
眼淚再一次崩潰了
無能為力這樣走著
再也不敢驕傲奢求了
我還能夠說些什麼
我還能夠做些什麼
我好希望你會聽見
因為愛你我讓你走了

nothing is more important than, now.
because now, is everything.