Nothing much

I lost it. Just cant find the warm fuzzy anymore. I looked hard for it. But nothing. So nothingness. Nothingness is nothing. So ill always be craving for some excitement. But nothingness is great too. We need a positive view on nothingness. When you are so detached from life that you agree that youve got nothing and aint needing nothing.

Change

Things aren't always what they seem. Our fears can play tricks on us, making us afraid to change course, afraid to move on. But usually hidden behind those fears are second chances waiting to be seized. Second chances at life, at glory, at family, at love. These opportunities don't come around everyday, so when they do we have to be brave, take a chance, and grab them while we can.

It burns

Im shaking with anger
Blood boiling throughout
Brain is overloaded with words unspoken
Fist are clenching
Nails digging into my skin
I like to yell out go fuck yourselves
But wouldnt that be rude

We are told to speak our minds but when we do nothing good comes out of it. Watch your language

I wish it was that simple

走着
看着
听着
你唱着
小幸福
我又怎能舍得放弃你呢？

Just harsh

Look at the way you respect me now.. Sarcasm.. Brainless.. Annoying..

Of lies and pretenses

Recently, ive learnt two new things. I logicalized that getting to know and meeting up with new people actually makes you experience things that you are not able to with the same group of people. When youre with someone for a long time, you tend to be accustom to them. What they love dearly, detest, you know it. Sometimes people do things for you, vice versa. What im trying to express here, is maybe periodically you may develop a new character which is not so you, to satisfy another individual. I emphasize on the being yourself character, I still do. I get upset about the lies and pretenses of people. How dare they? I may be reckless but do they think im foolish and naive as well? I am a liar, like most people I know. Though, im so sick to the back teeth in this circle of deception.

Because of confidence
Because you're trying to protect yourself

Hei foon nei

You dont have to say it, at least show it.

When the cold wind blows

Im starting to miss those awful times during army days.

In the early morning run
With my fieldpack on my back
With an aching in my heart
And my body full of sweat

Im a long long way from home
And I miss my lover so
In the early morning march
When the cold wind blows

When the cold wind blows
When the cold wind blows
When the cold wind blows
When the cold wind blows

I know I know
You have to go
But hurry back home
Cause I miss you so

https://youtu.be/Bmxp3qnLF_8

Liars pants on fire

I lied. I lied for you. It's my promise and I will keep it. Though it hurts me like hell. At least this is the most I can do. Dont know how to live with my lies. Am I delusional? Somehow I have this bipolar syndrome inside. Sometimes I feel like im someone else. The more knifes you throw at me, the more I will hurl myself at it. Dont ever want to discuss any future again because I dont hope anymore. Oh sure I can.

你有希望吗?

I don't know anymore. Wont hope for anything else as well. This is my long term problem. Too hopeful = hopeless as a person. Too much expectations may lead to too much disappointments that the heart cannot handle. If you want to meet then we'll meet. If you dont want to, then we'll not meet. Simplicity at it's best. Just someone to enjoy life together. No expectations from eachother and we won't suffer anymore injuries. Only enjoyments, no sufferings. Ain't that great? Dont you agree with me?