Now it feels like im only living in this world alone. My family they dont care, my friends they only care about themselves. I feel that this world is so selfish. Because everybody thinks that i can help myself. I can do this alone. I am the strongest man in the world. But the truth is im not. I need all the help i can get. What if i screw up?

At times i feel really useless. When my friends confided their problems in me, i could only listen. Now even accomplishing something simple seems so hard for me. Hoping for a better me. I hate hoping. Because it only brings disappointment. Why do people have hope?

Im disappointed the second time, for the same situation. Humans can be so dumb sometimes. You go through some rough time, you look at the blue sky and you carry some hope again. This ritual can go on forever. Only the blue sky, still the blue sky.

Why did they taught us to share, then want us to be independent? I used to share. But people took them away. Lesson learnt. Used to be independent. But people took them away. What do you want from me?

Im lost.. I dont even know why am i here. Doing all these stuffs which has no meaning. I wish someone up there that understands, give me some guidelines, control me, make me go your way, so i can live the life you want.. I dont know whats going on...